The Horrors That Haunt Me at Night

** Excuse my ambiguity. I don't want to be specific about this. It's probably not what youre thinking.

For some reason, I keep playing awful scenarios in my head at night, or when I wake up. Especially over the weekends, when I have all the time in the world to imagine awful situatations.

I'm not talking about like failing classes or anything, it's things that are more personal and I know that would hurt me soo badly emotionally if it ever happened. I don't believe these things will happen, but it could. Everytime I replay it in me head, my chest throbs and I feel naseous.

I spend time making sure that I'm doing as much as I can to prevent some of these things from happening, but I'm just a kid. I don't think about my actions, and everytime I do something that could possibily bring me closer to the event I'm thinking about, it just makes me cringe.